good God can you still get us home

there are so many things everyday that God does for me that i don't recognize.

He gave me my money back that i irresponsibly spent, none of that was of me.

He gave me the greatest friend in the world.

He took didn't provide a way into darkness.

He still loves me even though i realize most of these things later on.

Why is it that i'm so slow?

still growing that's why.

i'm now striving to see God daily in every situation.

and i think that He's just told me not to hang out with people that take that insight away from me. and He's so patient with me, and i'm trying to learn to be patient with myself because i'm imperfect. i'm not going to get it all right at first. growth is gradual.

i love 1 timothy 4:12

Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, and in purity.

He's also just said that i should be memorizing these verses so that i can have them on hand at all times. and that's important. i need to think of Him always.

my King is taking me down his path, and it's so right my soul cries joy.

i am a baby.

i have come to understand and realize that i have been wasting time and it hurts my heart.

i am a baby christian right now, and now it's time to grow.

i'm so ready.

college is in 8 days.

that'r right, 8.

it's happening right now, and i don't even know where the time went.

i have so much life ahead of me and this is the first step in the right direction i've taken in a long time.

was i really lucky to be in love with my best friend?

i don't know.

but i do know that God is completely and totally awesome and in control.

and that he has blessed me with time with my best friend in the whole world,

and he gave me another $6,088 for college.

i am blessed and thankful.

my heart is a mix of happy and sad.

i'm full of heartache because i truely miss casey,

yet at the same time i'm full of rejoicing because God is so good to me.

therefore, i'm a weirdy i think.

oh no sweeter name.