I love that God can use somebody like Francine Rivers to change my whole world with her incredible talents to translate His love into a story with so much truth it's overwhelming and scary and relieving and beautiful.
I've officially grown to learn so much about the way God works and how I'm supposed to work with Him in a natural beautiful harmony in everyday life. I've learned so much about my self, about my past, about how to let go, how to forgive, the fact that I haven't forgiven with my whole heart, the fact that God still doesn't have all of me, and that He should own every inch of my thoughts, actions, soul, and body.
I relate to Angel in so many ways it's frightening. The numbness that comes with living a life of sin, the hate, the sorrow, the shame.
This book is like a recovery class for me!
I didn't realize I still had so much to recover from; that I still have so much healing to do, that the process has only begun and God still has so much for me it's unimaginable! He loves me and cares for me in the same ways he cares for Angel, except He has taken the role of Michael Hosea. God himself drug me out of the pits of hell with me kicking and screaming. I didn't want to leave either; I was afraid. I did not asked to be saved. I did not want to be saved. I wanted to rot where I was so I wouldn't have to feel anything, so I wouldn't have to redo the process of finding what I thought was love, because the process was long, scary, and twisted. I was numb and afraid and hiding, and God moved me from my hiding place set me on my feet again and brought warmth back into my life with me practically complaining about it.
Oh, how He loves us so.
