Words of Worship

Tonight I got home from being with my other half, Texanna Kay Dennie and Coltin Wester.
I'm waking up at 5:30 am to meet him at 6:35 to go to Plano and lead worship for a youth group. Tex and I got back around 11:30 when I realized I had to work tonight from 12am to 4am.
But, not to be discouraged
Listen to the words to our song.

God in my living, there in my breathing
God in my waking, God in my sleeping
God in my resting, there in my working
God in my thinking, God in my speaking

My immediate thoughts when going into work were "Dang, I'm only going to get an hour of sleep. I won't be awake for worship; It'll be awful, etc."
When in reality, my God is the God of my resting, sleeping, working, waking, healing, breathing, dreaming, laughing, waiting, hurting, living.
and He is a God who can give me the energy to last a lifetime without sleep, because nothing is impossible when you are in His will.
and honestly, I hadn't prepared my heart very well. God has blessed me with these four hours to get to know Him better before worship in the morning, to really look at the words to the songs and place them in my heart.
God sure does know what He's doing.

Creator God you gave me breath so I could praise

This is why I live. I live to praise my God. I live to love my King. I live to worship the Creator. How dumb am I to think otherwise?

Come ye, weary, heavy laden
Lost and ruined by the fall
If you tarry til' you're better
You will never come at all

Coltin's favorite part of this song. Such truth in these words.

Overall, God never ceases to amaze me. When I think I've got it all figured out, He takes my whole world and shakes it upside down and reveals to me that I so do not have anything without Him. I praise God in moments like these, when I am humbled, when I can really see His face, feel His heart.

My God is the God of this city
He's the God of my energy
He's a God with no impossibilities

sometimes

i have a lot to do. and i just don't do it.

it's as if i put it off it will go away and won't have to be done.

thoughts at the b.

sitting here in this chair.

this black cushy chair

i watch people play ping pong.

in tyler collins super soft, baby blue hoody.

i'm seeing new people in my life

that i love.

realizing my God has blessed me,

blessed me with people that love me.

love me, encourage me, watch over me, see me, speak truth to me, surprise me, and shower me with God's mercy.

moments like these are when i think,

my God loves me so much.

so much that he would place me exactly where i belong,

without my even asking Him.

without my even wanting Him.

i'm sitting here in his presence

surrounded by people that desire to know Him more,

to be head over heels in love with Him.

i am blessed.

i am loved.

i am a servant.

i am God's child.

i am beautiful.

i am saved.

She like the fragrant taste of rain...

I've decided that if you are a new reader to my blog that you should NOT read the previous updates before this one. because they are embarrassing.

Sometimes a person doesn't realize just how much they have grown until they look at the previous blogs that they have posted. and i see now that i really have changed dramatically, even in the last week!

anyways. God is so incredibly good to me.

I'm learning patience, how to pray, to ask for wisdom, how to interact with other people, how to dress, how to think, and how to dream.

God has changed ever fiber of my being in a few short months and i hope it never ends.

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She like the fragrant taste of rain

rests in my senses, relentless, restless

dripping and diving in taunting drops

through my blue sky barren being

and i am searching for a sign of the smallest cloud

split to disentigrate upon the ground and

gasping, cracking like the skin of my craving tounge

dry like the veins of a heart without love

and i can not turn the way she feels away from me

like a layer to be shed

it is carved in stunning shapes and patterns on my soul

carried like dreams to places my body could never go

carried like dreams to places my body cannot go

good God can you still get us home

there are so many things everyday that God does for me that i don't recognize.

He gave me my money back that i irresponsibly spent, none of that was of me.

He gave me the greatest friend in the world.

He took didn't provide a way into darkness.

He still loves me even though i realize most of these things later on.

Why is it that i'm so slow?

still growing that's why.

i'm now striving to see God daily in every situation.

and i think that He's just told me not to hang out with people that take that insight away from me. and He's so patient with me, and i'm trying to learn to be patient with myself because i'm imperfect. i'm not going to get it all right at first. growth is gradual.

i love 1 timothy 4:12

Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, and in purity.

He's also just said that i should be memorizing these verses so that i can have them on hand at all times. and that's important. i need to think of Him always.

my King is taking me down his path, and it's so right my soul cries joy.